umpteenth rambling

TGIF, yes? I can't wait for Country Fair tomorrow, yay! It's gonna be lots of fun so come and support the school! For those of you coming by train, remember that some of the train lines have track maintenance on tomorrow so they will be substituted by buses, sorry guys. I'll be on the 12~2pm shift for parking, so maybe I'll tell you where to park :D. No jelly stall this year! D: Courtney said it required a lot of organisation to just run it so I guess it wouldn't have been easy running it each year. Maybe if I remember, I can run the jelly stall next year or something; my mum taught me how to make a mean jelly dish that 'melts in your mouth' xD. That's beside the point though, which is to ramble.

You know how we always get stressed about the work and assignments that we get from school and always complain about it? Well honestly, I kinda live for those moments. I mean, I don't love assignments or anything, but, I like the rush that comes with it. The super-concentrated mood that I get into and the relief when the assessment/assignment/exam is over. I can't imagine my life without those points in my schooling life. I find that on not so busy weekends I find myself wanting to do some sort of work, that I SHOULD be doing something rather than fluffing around. I'd like to think that in the future, looking back on my time in Hurlstone, I will think of the rush-rush hustle and bustle of school life and that, though not as stressful as real life, was still an arduous time (arduous is a bit OTT isn't it?). You might think I'm crazy for having some sort of indirect liking toward the work we do at school, and you know, you could be right. I believe that everyone is a little crazy in their own little way. Just that some are more crazy than others.

As I discussed with someone the other day (or was it today? school days meld together), I find it a bit daunting that we, as high school students, stress so much about papers and assessments, cramming to the last minute and freaking out before and afterward finding out the questions we got wrong by confirming answers with our friends, when we're only in high school. I mean, the real world out there, where you can get a stellar job, is a LOT more demanding than we can think of. As smart as we are, I feel that we haved lived out most of our lives so far in a shoebox in a house on a street in a suburb far away from the big city. Yes, I feel that we have yet to experience the true horrors of the world and that there is nothing we can do to prepare for those experiences. After all, life is a crapshoot.

Hm. I think I'll tax something from someone else's blog. Thanks for reading!

more than just a deodorant...

Yesterday I had my birthday party for a few people. If you weren't invited and feel offended, I'm sorry, but I could only invite 10 or so people, and only 6 people showed up and it was still pretty crazy; I don't think 10 people would have fit in my room XD. But yes, I'm sorry again, but when you think about it, none of YOU invite me to your parties do you?! THAT'S RIGHT!! lol, honestly though, don't take it to heart, I really just invited my group and a few other people who I thought would mix well with my out-of-school friends. Going further, the people that went to the party will undoubtedly understand the title (except Rhoda, she left early).

The whole day was a laugh riot, if only I could recount it all I would, but as I have said many times, the human memory is imperfect and subject to change from time or even stress. But anyway....it began at 12pm and, being the punctual guest he was, Rutherford (thanks for the card, nice message XD) was the first to arrive at my house at 12:01--freaky yeah?! After a short tour of the house, Justin arrived 5 or 10 minutes afterward. We all went to the backyard, ate some chips and shot the hoops (quite badly I might add). Justin and Rutherford played a little chess when we went back inside and I was like, "the party has just begun and you're playing chess; IS IT THAT BORING?!" Rhoda and Maylyn arrived a while later close to 1pm. Another tour of the house was made for everyone again and, at 1, we went to the backyard for lunch of pizza, pies, and barbecue skewers (which you people BARELY TOUCHED!! D<). Afterward, Guitar Hero was set up and everyone played a little. Sebastian and Chau arrived a while after. After some chatting, the Pocky was taken out while Seb and Chau ate lunch.

SingStar followed the proceedings where we all sang for a good while. Suffice to say, Sebastian was by far a lot better at singing than all of us. Everyone had a chance to sing and we all had a lot of fun. Around 4, Rhoda had to leave early. And then there were 5 (guests). A break played out in-between and we ate some ice-cream with banana fritters (and some nice topping I might add) Later, we went upstairs to play Truth or Dare. I will not disclose the occurrences; the guests all know what happened. Honestly, nothing scandalous happened, and the whole thing was a lot of fun. By 6:40, Rutherford's parents had arrived and so he left. Close to 7 we all went back downstairs and ate some more food and relaxed and played some piano as well. Maylyn and Justin left within a few minutes of each other around 7. Chau and Sebastian briefly left to go to Seb's house to do some chores. In that space of time, mum was able to swoop in and put her foot down; the party was over D: I was initially upset because Seb and Chau were coming back, but mum really was tired and wanted some quiet. I understand now why she did it. When they came back, I felt a bit defeated and told them to leave; but not without a smile and laugh before saying goodbye. The party aftermath was quickly taken care of with the help of Dite. A little vacuuming, wiping down the couches and using the window cleaner on the glass table set things straight. A shower and leftover party food for dinner. It was a good day, which is an understatement.

Thanks to everyone who could come and having such a good time.
Sorry to all the people who couldn't make it; I wish you could have been there with all the fun idiocy and laughter.

~Fin.

labelling ie. tags - the 11th hour.

I don't really see the point in adding labels or tags for my blog. I mean really, I don't have so many posts that I need to search engine them to find the one I want to read. I mean, I don't even READ my old posts again unless I'm really bored and in need of soemthing better to do. I know that some people use the tags as a way of being witty by just putting words in there that aren't necessarily related to the article but its still funny anyway. I'd love to do that, but I'm not with enough intiative to actually add tags to EACH post and then the whole thing seems a bit untidy, unkempt.

Anyway, to the couple in the music room today...don't worry about what happened. I guess I'm just...I don't know, getting angry for no valid reason. There are things that I think you should have considered, but then again, you didn't really know any better, did you? I don't know myself. I just needed a much-needed walk for some alone time (disregard the possibility for...well, you know what I mean if you get this). So, don't worry about it. I'm fine. Just a mood swing...hope I'm not ending up menopausal like that guy on House a few weeks ago. That was freaky.

Translating Japanese straight from manga is hard. Even with my memory of basic Japanese phrases, it's not an easy task. I get so frustrated when the word I'm looking for doesn't show up and then upset at myself when I find it in a different section later on. It makes me feel dumb. But it's not that bad, the feeling. I'm sure others are having trouble...right? XD, we'll see next month I guess.

Some reminders:
- Science skills test this coming Thurs.
- Justin and Kelvin, shouldn't we start history assignment?
- National history exam to be studied for.
- PE article collection (forgot about that until today)
- Is there still a jelly stall for Country Fair?
-Why the hell am I hearing that there are people that aren't going to camp?!

I'm going to start learning Silence and Motion from the FFVIII Piano Collections after I master Eyes On Me. SaM is hard, but hopefully, with time, I'll learn it...if you want to have a listen, the link's below.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zgGtxsx_5as

11 hours down, 29 to go.

none the wiser.

I'm 16 now, but I haven't become smarter, any stronger, any wiser. I thought I was a mature person, but thinking back I've done things that a mature person wouldn't do. They say people change with time, and I feel that I am changing and not changing at the same time. I'm not changing because I still do a lot of stupid things and yet I am changing because even till now, I don't completely understand myself, because my views, attitudes, many aspects of me change. It's weird. I don't know why you elicit such emotions in me. I don't understand, and it isn't fair. I know it's not on purpose, but still. It is NOT FAIR. bleargh. I wish I had the ability to understand people and emotions, like a superpower, but that's just wishful thinking.

Thanks to everyone that wished me a happy birthday! To all that haven't, SHAME!! LOL, naw it's okay. I probably wouldn't remember all of your birthdays anyway, so it's okay. One year older, legal, but still not any smarter, not any stronger, not any wiser...but I'm still changing when I'm not changing. At least I haven't gotten weaker, more short-sighted or dumber, I guess, I don't think at least. Not much else to say, I guess...

P.S. I never knew soft music could soothe so well the nerves that wreck my mind due to the current technological handicap I currently face. Hopefully things will turn out better tomorrow. Hopefully.

Formal Blog!!

If you have something to say to us about the formal because you can't be bothered saying it to our faces or just have too much time to surf the net, check out the new formal site for our school. Have fun guys!

P.S.: Don't forget to let everyone know about the formal blog so that we can have as much people as possible giving us their feedback.

http://hurlstoneformal09.blogspot.com/

inconsiderance.

I was originally going to title this post with a quote, but I've forgotten it so I'll just stick with this. The subject matter is for once dependent on the title, so instead of talking about something that I thought of as interesting at the time of its conception, I'm going to complain instead (as the quote reminded me what the subject was...since I've forgotten both, well, yeah). This is directed at a few persons whose names I will not mention. They might know who they are. But yeah...this has been on my mind for a while and I really wanna vent. If you figure out who these people are, then good for you, I won't confirm your answer because this is just a vent; in a few days I probably won't feel as angry as sound in this following rant:

"I hate how things are the way they are. I don't understand why you can't be a little more restrained. I know it's not my place to say as I have never been in that situation, but still, no matter what you say, I know that I would be more discreet. Definitely. I know me. I would not compromise the discreet part of me; I'm easily embarrassed (referring to over-paranoia). It makes me mad. As much as I'd like to, I most likely won't get used to it, just like how you wouldn't get used to it if you were wearing my shoes. I hate the insensitivity and incosiderance of the whole situation, I wish I could be the bigger person and just tolerate it, but thinking about it...I can't. Sebastian says I'm the 'epitomy of abstinence', and you know what? MAYBE I AM!! That's just who I am! So don't tell me to deal with it, because I have TRIED. YOU deal with it. GOD."

woo. Ironically, 'Paper Planes - MIA' started when I finished that. Those who know that song would understand the irony. ANYWAY, if the persons mentioned know who they are and have read the above paragraph, I'd like to say I'm sorry, but I'm not going to. At least, not yet. I'm still a bit riled up. *sigh*. This will probably have repercussions, but hey, I'm allowed to complain; I am human after all.

In other news...I paragon-ed my English speech, which is AWESOME! =D So happy! Math exam is over, and I felt that I went well, so hopefully I DID go well. Ag presentation coming up; it seems that everyone so far has just read off their ppt, and I readied a speech, which sucks 'cause now mine will probably seem really long and stuffy compared to everyone else's, but the speech works in CONJUNCTION with the ppt...GRAGH. I hate social pressure. Whatever. Tomorrow's another day. Not much homework this week, which is good. It's a nice break after all of the work rush, but I feel like I should be doing more work (must be the effect of work excess to want do some form of school work). I'm off guys.

horrible gushing. skip ahead to the bottom paragraph, please.

I'm only doing this 'cause this is also an output for feelings, as shown by the blogs of others that I won't mention *cough cough". XD honestly though, I won't. Anyway...

Holding hands, hugging, whatever. Being with someone you find very important to you causes emotions to stir that you wouldn't usually feel with other people of a different nature of importance. Longing and heartache are a few of the emotions you feel when you are unable to be with that person, when you can't express yourself, when you think they reciprocate your feelings but are afraid that you are just over-analysing. I cannot say from experience what kinds of feelings you would or could feel when you are with your special someone, holding hands, hugging, whatever. All I know is that I wish I could be with a special person. I do not know what love is. I love my family, my relatives, my host family, my friends, just not in that way. I don't know if what I feel is something real or just a momentary attraction. I don't want to jump to those conclusions about myself, that I've given my heart to someone unknowingly to them. I know about the love I have for a close person, I'm just not sure if I know what love in its most combustible form is like, if I've ever experienced it. There are times when I scream inside, wondering why I'm in the situation I'm in and why I'm not strong enough to turn the tables. I just wanna be with my special person...but what do I know? I'm just a teenager. If I do end up with my speical person in mind, for all I know, this feeling I've got inside me could just be a fake of what real, combustible love is like.

--END GUSH--

Gee, I've never really put that out in writing of any form before. Dunno if it sound's depressing. Missed out on United States of Tara so I could catch up on math HW on Monday. BOO. Last couple weeks have been fine, no major tragedies. Did my English speech, got notification for History assessment and finished Ag assignment in a day, I just did not present. Although I want to, I probably won't be posting the CC BBQ photos on fb anytime soon. Hm. Not much else to talk about, I'm kinda hungry though...I'll wait for dinner. GOD. Reading back on the gush part, it sounds like I'm going to commit suicide or something XD! Well, whatever, just something I needed to get out I guess. See you all later!

bottled water.

You know how there has been a lot of speculation in the bottled water industry? How it is the biggest scam ever because the industry is basically selling us something we can get from our own taps? Well, I'd have to agree with those who find the sellers of bottled water a bunch of cheap (yet socially smart) people, but considering its ease in portability, smooth physique and "refreshingly pure spring water", most cannot help but be enthralled by the pretty packaging. It's a shame.

However, when you take the water bottle scene outside of Australia, the debate on bottled water scamability sshifts dramatically. Thinking back to my trip in the Philippines, I was not allowed under any cirumstances to consume ANY form of water while I was there; apparently tourists who drink the local water, even if it was filtered, would fall ill. This included ice and ice-drinks so those were a big no-no as well. I took their word for it: after all, I didn't want to end up as a pale shaking mess for half the time I was there.

So during my stay, I was literally put on a ration of 10 or so bottles of Mount Franklin water that my dad had taken with him on the flight to the Phils. Unfortunately, the water was not enough. By the second week, I only had 3 or 4 bottles of water left and I had to start substituting my constant urges to drink water with, say, soft drinks instead. It was an odd experience having to keep subbing in soft drinks for water rationing..it was very odd. Because of the major heat over there, though, I did end up finishing my water before the last day, so we had to go get bottled water from one of the outlet stores. We bought 'Absolute' water, but they called it 'distilled', not spring water. Lucky for me, it really was the best around as I did not end up sick and shivery.

I guess I'm just thankful that we live in a country where you won't die if you drink water straight from the tap. The bottled water idea popped into my head while I was leaving Casula Mall as well, so...yeah! Something I wanted to talk about. Good luck for tomorrow guys!

getting hot & bothered.

not really, I'm just titling this post that way because I just took a really nice shower, nice and hot, and so I feel all warm now in my jammies. I did get a little bothered in the shower though, if you get my drift ;D. SORRY if you guys had to poke out your mind's eye XD. Just came back from Pho 67 in Green Valley, haven't been to that branch in ages. It was really nice to go out again after church, which was packed because of First Communion. The choir that sang did very nice harmonies. The only downside to tonight is that my clothes stink of Chinese food so they're all in the wash now.

Saturday already down, I REALLY hope I can get all of my work done by the time they're due (speech, summaries for math and ag pres). I've started doing them all and I'm making some headway but I'm afraid I'm gonna just fluff out near the end and do a half'ass job, which I do not like doing to my work because I know I'm capable of doing some good work, I just don't devote enough time to do the actual work.

If you guys want to see something really funny, type it 'top 60 ghetto names' onto YouTube, it's REALLY funny and if you haven't watched it yet, go watch it now, it's only a minute and a bit. If you're looking for some belly busting laughs and you're open to laugh at semi-controversial stuff, YT Margaret Cho. She's an awesome comedian who often jokes about sexuality, government, visual image and Asian-ethnicity, to name a few topics. If you like action or just some awesome fighting, go find Dead Fantasy, a series of fan animation videos done as a collab of the Dead Or Alive and Final Fantasy games with each universe battling it out to see who comes out as the victor. DF 1~5 is out now, so watch it if you're into that kinda stuff.

Wow, looking at that paragraph makes me sound like some kind of promoter XD, didn't realise. I just wanted to share what I find entertaining with other people I guess. I find that unlike myself, other bloggers go on about more interesting topics than I do. I don't know if it's just the fact they're ideas aren't mine and they're new and refreshing, but it could just be that they think of cooler stuff to talk about than I do. Just an observation.

Just to end, I don't think that phils '09 memorabilia will ever be posted, I haven't even updated it like I promised I would SO many months ago. Well guys, PINCH & PUNCH!!