Inner Reflection

This will be short. Just something that's been floating around in my head for a good few days now. I might be doing more of these in future, so I might number them! By the way, I'm not reflecting on how I might do more reflections in the near future. No. Not the case...I'm rambling. Ok, on with in.

While I've been holed up inside home for a good while, I've noticed that, as Asian as it sounds, music, and piano in particular, has become a special part of me. This is more evident when I play. Usually, when I play the piano, I relax, my mind wanders and I get lost in the music (until I press the wrong key). Being able to play an instrument has opened up another world/dimension (or whatever you wanna call it) for me, and the holidays have helped me find this about myself. I even posed the question to myself, 'What would you give up? All your electronic games (and I mean ALL of them, just not including the electronic games played at parties and with friends on those fun occasions) or piano (the skills I've 'honed' and the instrument itself)?

In all honesty, I'd rather give up the games, because the piano gives me something that games can't. The feeling is hard to describe, I just feel empowered, yet calm at almost the same time. Feeling the music go through me, and its emotions too. I guess that's what I love about piano, the emotion of its pieces and conveying. Playing sad songs does leave me sad sometimes. Powerful pieces sometimes leaves me drained (not as dramatic as the word implies, but I still feel this), leaving me with peace of mind.

The emotion is a key reason to why I don't want to take lessons: I'm afraid that somehow I might lose the fire I have for playing the piano. That among the learning and exams and so on, I would lose the connection. That plus the fact that I can't be bothered to go and it costs money XD!

Whenever I play I song, especially one I'm attached to, I especially loathe when I have to stop midway. Not because of a mistake I make, no (...well, sometimes). That's my fault. It's when I'm required to do something that takes me away from the otherworld of music I fall into everytime I tinkle on the keys. I don't like disconnecting from the piece then have to reconnect with it. It doesn't feel complete in that sense. I would want to start from the beginning, but that takes time.

I'm very pedantic about this kind of thing aren't I? Well, I'm not sure how long this has been, I'll just post and see if this ended up neing long, I'm not bothered to preview this. I hope this gives you, the viewer, a small insight into my mindset, the awesome Patrick XD!

I don't follow, I BROWSE!

That Phils memorabilia will probably be delayed, again, due to my procrastination. I'll get to it, I'm gonna start doing the draft again after this post, I promise ( but I never said I'll finish it now). Anyway, down to business. Let's start from Good Friday.

Kind of a blank say, I went to church twice for the Stations of the Cross and appreaction which was followed by confession. You know how it is, on GF, you're not meant to do anything FUN. You're meant to be sad and be grateful to Jesus for dying on the cross for us. At least, that's what my mum said was the attitude you had to have. As selfish as it sounds, until recently, I have disdained Good Fridays. They were always so slow for me, and I really, REALLY didn't like doing nothing around the house except eating and napping. After all, I was a kid that had lots of energy and nothing to do. This leads to restlessness, and I know that that made me CRANKY! D<.
This all came to an end one GF when we rented White Chicks to watch and laughed asses off at the quiche scene and many others. From about that time, Good Fridays haven't been so bad. Asking mum again about it, I found out that GF is a time of reverence to Jesus and quiet praise. I can understand why my mum didn't say that at first, seeing as how I probably wouldn't have understood it.

Back on track...
Saturday is a bit of blur, I can't really remember what we did, I think my mum told me off for not doing something constructive and was forced to clean my room. Also went to church that night. Sunday, we had the little family over and our neighbours Neil & Sash and their kids. We all had fun, enjoyed an outdoor lunch. Arjun, N&S' son, whooped my ass in chess, chekmating me in a few turns. Of course, he played 'slack' as he called it, and we kept playing. I got checkmated again, he went slack, then I got my queen BACK! HAHAHAHAA! But then we had to stop, a change of games happened. During that time, the game was interrupted by an Egg hunt for the kids, and Raymark and Arjun's sister played Payday. While the kids played hide and seek, I played the piano for our visitors. The PS2 was brought out later on, DDR was played. Kids have a very bad sense of beat and rhythm...*sigh*. Soon afterward, N&S family left, leaving the little family. Raymark played KHII for a while, played games, ate dinner, then they had to leave. And that was our Easter Sunday!

Monday. Meh. Lazed about. Thought about doing my homework. Eh. Meant to go out with some friends to the movies, but it was moved to Wednesday.
Tuesday was another lazy day, my mum and Dite went to Berry for shopping.
Wednesday, nothing really accomplished. I marked my IST feather assignment and had my braces tightened. We proceeded to spend some time with the little family, my Dad and I. Had fun playing Mario and watching Food Safari.
Thursday, Easter Show with Rayan and Justin. Lots of fun. Can't be bothered to recall everything. It was a memorable day, photos will be uploaded on my FB in the near future. It was nice going around and looking at the art, getting free food, buying the RIP OFF food (not so good) and just spending time with friends. Rollercoaster, True Blue story, woodchopping competition, Motorshow, fireworks and laser show and...archery? LOL. Games are very, VERY expensive, you cannot haggle with those people.
Friday. The fated day. Painful. VERY PAINFUL. I won't mention what happened, I'll just say that if you know what I'm talking about, then good. Please don't discuss too openly. Saturday and Sunday went by quickly, seeing as how I was unable to do work. Monday, had to go to the clinic again to have a cleaning. Ouch. I mean seriously, it F%@$ING HURT. That brings us to now time. After all that typing I probably won't add to my draft today: maybe another time.

Just as a footnote, I chose my title today because I was browsing people's blogs via links etc. If I followed people, then I'm afraid it would end up being like STALKING! Not that I'm pointing any finger (*cough cough* Rosa...) AHEM! What was that?! LOL, I'm just joking...or am I? See you all later!

Tardiness

Just a quick post as an apology for not keeping up with my blog. Couldn't access this site in the Phils because it was blocked >_>. When I came back, I had little time to make the next post, seeing as how I did most of the work given, but my class excelled ahead and so I had extra work to do, damn you eggheads! On the upside I have started a draft! Again, I''m sorry about the delay, my Phils remembrance will come eventually. The post for the last couple of weeks will take most certainly even longer. Once I'm in the blog-zone again, you'll all wish I could just shut up. Anyway, thanks for your patience, I'll get backto you ASAP. *Goes and plays Mabinogi* XD!