//end.

Just came back from prefect camp which was a really great experience. Personally, I find it a lot harder to compare to the other camps because it was a completely different kind of camp than the others. There was a fair bit of work on leadership and brainstorming about what we'd do as prefects, so it wasn't as activity-intensive as I thought it would be like Yr 9/10 camp, but the discussions on leadership in my opinion were alright. I'll admit that I may have had a yawn every now and then, but honestly it was an interesting seminar to have during the camp. The food was REALLY good. I think the fact that the kitchen was catering to 35-odd people rather than over 150 would have played a huge factor in the food quality.

The last two days we had leadership meetings basically discussing and doing activities on how to be an effective leader; all the activities occurred in the afternoon. The first day was different though since we arrived at around 10-10:30. The whole day was really centred around getting used to working together and being with each other, so the activities basically consisted of Icebreakers and Initiatives. I HATE helium sticks. Spiderwebs are alright though.

That night we had a prefect brainstorm on school issues; probably one of the most inspiring times I've experienced, and definitely from a place I didn't expect. I never really thought until then that you could become so passionate about something. To paraphrase, we want to bring back school spirit and the Hurlstone Family. That night my cabin (Rutherford, Kelvin and Zul) all went to sleep pretty early by comparison, but I couldn't get to sleep until 12:45. There was no real reason for it since I had coffee in the midday, which should have been fine...hmmm....

Next day was more leadership in the morning, lunch, and then canoeing, raft building and archery. Triangles work in rafting. Some people cheat by batting away cannonballs when they're not meant to. Oh, and look out for Charlie's Angels with bows.

That night we had the Prefect Head elections; everyone running had to give a speech. I'm not gonna recount the speeches; too many to recall. A lot were quite emotional; I cried behind a tree afterward considering the day it was and the speeches. I'll treasure that night forever. My biggest thanks to all of you who were there for me and gave your support. Also, I didn't know about your situation [bread]. It was really good to talk with you that night; thank you for entrusting that part of yourself to me. Oh, and to [bread] and [cup], a very big thanks for all that you did for me today...it means a lot to know that you went out of your way to help me. For [flowers] and [surprise], thank you as well for being so supportive. To [flame], thanks for holding on that night.

Today we had some more leadership discussion before a few initiative-style activities and lunch. We left afterward (obviously), arriving at school a little earlier than expected and Cried our lungs out, though I don't think it was advisable at that time. Just to add, there were too many good memories of the games room to mention, so maybe you might add some [pong]? But then again I don't think you read this...

Going onto another subject really quickly because I need to eat dinner...

This post is labelled '//end.' because I'm going to stop blogging at least until then end of Year 12 and HSC. I don't really have the time for this anymore, but I figured that I should leave a definitive 'final' post. I might pick this up in again a year or two, but I can't say. Thanks to everyone who have followed, commented, read or stalked because they really had nothing better to do. You guys were the reason that I actually kept posting after the first few months; it was nice to know that there were others interested in my life (or have no lives). In the beginning, I started this so that I could have a documentation of my life in high school, but I've found that life is too dense and too complicated to try and describe in 30 minutes of sudden-blog-inspiration. After about a year this began to talk about feelings and my angsty-self. Again, thank you for reading; I really do appreciate it *beats heart with fist in a manly way that men do*.

So, for a year at the very least, I bid you all adieu.

reprieve.

I am currently enjoying my second day of laziness and am wondering what the coming year of school will hold. I mean, how much work will we get during the summer holidays? That's my biggest concern so far - I bet they'll give us an entire unit to do, like Cosmic Engine. Erk. But anywho, I'm not focusing on my worries and am just having fun doing whatever I feel like I guess. The change in weather from the everyday cold to the sunny but cool days has been a nice change. I like winter because of the food, but I miss ice-cream and some sun has definitely changed my summer-winter perspective. Spring hasn't been so bad in terms of allergies at least, seeing as how I beat the pollen to the punch by getting a nasal spray. That stuff is a godsend :D

The last day of school was pretty odd, but fun. As far as I remember, there were 14 people there, though half turned up later in the day: at first it was 6 or 7 people. Did we have classes? Yes, for English and Maths. Did they try to make us do some work? Yes, they did. Did it work? No. We played Wiki-races instead of reading those booklets in English. For Maths, Morrison gave us a question to prove the maximum value of a triangle in a circle. We didn't really bother, so we just talked. The rest of the day was just hanging out in the donut quad (with Yatesy XD), library and art quad. Sadly, when I went to get some Goulburn Valley from the canteen, they were all sold out. Ice-cream as well. It was fairly warm that day, and no ice-cream = DID NOT LIKE.

The last two periods everyone just stayed in the art quad. I got to return my money to Lana since she had turned up during lunch and we stole Dan's phone, played games with the bamboo sticks and also SOS with Li-Ching. At the bell Larry, Justin, Dan and I ran to catch the train and...well, that's about it. It was all alot of fun I guess, but there wasn't much to be done. Honestly, I just went to see what it would be like and to return my money to Lana.

Here's to the holidays!

nonsensicals.

When I thought I could move past everything that I had hoped for, you appear in my dreams and lie. You came up to me and said you loved me. I asked you if this was a dream, and you lied to me. You said, "I'm pretty sure this isn't a dream," and you held me tight. I could feel my heart beating so hard in my chest, I felt like I was going to explode. I hugged you back and buried my face in your neck; it felt so real. We talked nonsense as we walked and hugged and held hands. I felt like I was flying higher than I had ever felt. You told me that it was real, and I believed you. Your voice was real, your face was real, you were real.

And yet, as I marveled at the fortitude of our encounter, as I listened to your voice that seemed even more special to me, I felt my eyes. I could feel my eyes in some other world, closed, even though I was able to see everything, the sun, the sky, the trees, the concrete, you. And so I opened my eyes and fell back into darkness, where I was unable to accept what had happened. It was all so real. I had dreamt up a situation of utter happiness, only to wake at 3am and stay awake for half an hour in shock. You mean so much to me, and yet I have no plans to confront anything. I am scared that you have a secret pull on me that I will not be free of for a long time. I can only hope that somehow, things will work themselves out, somehow.

tinted windows

I was sitting on the bus from Livo to Prestons and I saw Kelvin, Richard and Tieu waiting for a bus (presumably), and I wanted to say hello, but they couldn't see me because of the windows. The bus was pretty packed as well so I couldn't get up to the other side of the bus and bash the window trying to get their attention looking like a spastic teenager, so I just stared at them, trying to make eye contact through tinted windows. There were other people getting on the bus at the time so we were stopped for a good minute or two, and after about twenty seconds of trying to catch their attention, I felt really stupid just staring at them. This is why I hate one-way tinted windows; you can always see outside but the people outside can't see you (at least not very well).

This has been the first weekend so far into the term that I don't have an assessment to study for or prepare for the upcoming week, which is relieving. My American cousins the Grahams have also left today, ending their two week visit. I'm very sad that they've left; the house is SO quiet without them. Watching Harold and Kumar with Mandy was hilarious!! Can't wait to meet you in Japan! Not so thankfully, Tita (aunt) Siony has successfully converted my family into watching Korean Dramas. =\

We all had a family game night last night crossing over into the morning consisting of bingo ($5 prize games), Dirty Minds and Taboo. If you don't know the game, wiki it or something; can't be bothered explaining right now.

Good luck to anyone who has assessments on this week, I'm hoping everyone did well for their speeches (loved Dan's one; watch it on facebook if you haven't already)!

Peace out~ XD

a little too slow.

I'm so sorry I didn't give you the summary that I promised before the exam, I only finished it an hour ago, and I've given up on the other summary for trig. I hope that you've forgotten about me giving the stuff to you and that you studied successfully on your own. I can't send it to you because it was hand written and I can't find the scanner, and I'm guessing it's a bit late to be sending it to you now...I'm also sorry for not coming today, I really wish I could've...I'm such an ass-face. I hope I can make it up to you sometime.

Good luck to everyone for tomorrow, we're all stressed enough to need it; let's make our Asian parents proud!

41.

We ready for English assessment?! Gyahaha, I know I'm not 100% ready. You know, I've used the 'you can't study for English' excuse so many times, that this time around I've done some writing. Not essay planing, but just paragraphing thoughts on the AOS. It's not really much, but it calms the nerves. I'm just afraid that the preparations I've done won't be enough, or what we're listening to has no visuals, so I can't relate two of my points to my related text. *sigh* I hope I got well. As far as I can remember, I've only ever gotten A's in English two or three times, and none of them were in these pop-essay assessments.

Yesterday we held the 40th Day Novena at our house, and needless to say a good hundred people came. We hired a marquee which helped and the weather was beautiful that day as well, so warm and sunny. After eating a smorgasboard of food, we released 40 silver and white balloons into the air (Ryan let go of his blue one as well, cute little thing) for Dad. Wonder if he got them... It looked very nice watching them swim up into the sky, though Kuya Ray had an inappropriate comment about it. One of the family friends brought over their Wii remotes as well, so we had 4-way Mario Kart, Wii Sports and Grand Slam Tennis. So fun, we played Rainbow Road 3 times XD.

To Mr.E - Sorry if I come off a bit weird, I'm just like that sometimes.

I'll end it here, not much else to say and I wanna catch some Z's as well. Good luck for tomorrow everyone~

"but that's your choice"

What else is there to say about camp? It was a tonne and a half of fun. Sure, last year's camp was better because it was longer and the activities were better, but this camp was pretty good as well. Recount? Nah, can't be bothered. Can't be staying on the computer for too long. Maybe just an overview. Group 6 = awesomeness. Too bad that we missed out on high ropes, damned rain D:< . It was a shame that the weather was so crappy. If it wasn't so cold, I think the camp would be up there with last year's. The games night and improvisation night were a nice personal touch to the camp. I LOVED Tansy's impersonation of Keegan LMFAO she is a phenomenal actress.

The disco was a lot of fun too, just a shame we couldn't go back to our cabins and change =\. We tried to request some Lady Gaga before, but it wasn't played, as most would've noticed a lot of the songs were dance-remix and RMB. Hoping for a more eclectic DJ next time, gosh! XD The playlist was okay I guess. I guess it's just cause I'm going a bit alternative is all.

Still trying to think of a related visual text for English and planning on doing more of Chemistry research over the week. Dunno what sport selection to do. I wanna do a sport with friends. Love to do it with handball group, but then half of the guys go do Grade, and I'm not that hot with most sports. Hanging out with just girls in ice skating for ages gets a bit plain after a while. Don't get me wrong, it's fun, but a change would be nice.

It's been a month now, and it's hard to believe that much time has passed. I'm hoping Mr.E will be at the Novena. I had a really good time with him last time he was here; throwing cards like a ninja at 16 is great! Looking forward to the prospect of cooking in Jap tomorrow (or next time we're in the cooking room), methinks it'll be okonomiyaki, the fried pizza thing. Love it!

Thanks for reading my gaggle of random readers, it is an honour for me to know that people have an interest in my affairs. Ta~

my hero can make magic water

It's been a good while since the last time I've made a post...a lot has happened. Someone very close to me passed away nine days ago on the 27th. I'm coping. I wish I had more time with him, more time to learn more about him and make more memories to recall in the future, but I guess it wasn't meant to be. My deepest thanks to all those who supported me yesterday. The 40th day Novena will be on the 5th of June yet. I'm just typing up random bits and pieces really. I can't wait to get back to everyone next week, or maybe even tomorrow if things are okay.

Good night.

Sweet dreams.

Have a good night's rest.

Don't forget to say your prayers.

And I'll see you tomorrow.

yes, I recognise you from school. no, you're not my friend.

I don't wanna sound rude, but that's the way I feel about people adding me on facebook lately. There've been people who add me who go to Hurlstone, and I recognise their dps. But why add people that you don't talk to? Some of them I haven't even talked to. How can you be friends with someone that you haven't introduced youself to? Just a little rant, I guess...

Balancing homework and housework and leisure time is getting harder. Not insanely hard, just harder. I've been having to allocate a lot less time to leisure, which is a bummer, but expected. I hate ironing when it's hot. Adds 5~10 extra degrees, I swear.

My mum is a bit of a pill sometimes. She doesn't ask me to do things, she tells me to. She doesn't always say please and thank you either. She also yells from the other side of the house and expects me to understand what she's saying when I'm doing my own thing. I love my mum, she's just overbearing sometimes, but I guess all mums are like that.

I find that blogging's fun to do because as you go along in life, you get to read what you wrote in the past. It's like saving your memories, I guess. That last sentence was just me trying to ass more to this post, because I can't think of anything else to type about...

Just to end, if any of you find a small black and white smiggle pencil case that's covered in Japanese manga lying around school, it's probably mine. I've lost it or someone stole it. Now I've got a pen, a pencil, a rubber and a highlighter left took take to school tomorrow. Yay! Economics presentation for my group tomorrow, Australia trumps America's health care system!!

Ciao.

have I been ... snobbed?!

I've found it takes me a lot of time to think about blogging before actually doing it. I've probably thought of about over ten topics to blog about over the last couple of weeks but haven't gotten around to them. The only reason, actually, that I'm doing this right now is because I don't have anything better to do, no offence Rosa :D

To the person that has inadvertently snobbed me...could you invite me so I can view your blog? Please? The first time I actually tried to view it was during the holidays and since I've been denied access, I've had no choice but ask the person to let me in, seeing as how we're good friends and all. But I keep forgetting to bring it up at school, so I'm posting about, hoping they will see this and the rest tells itself.

GARAGE SALE!!

But seriously, we're having one right now, but we just closed it half an hour ago. It'll be open again tomorrow from 9 to 3 at 8 Greenwell Rd Prestons. Drop by if you wanna take a look or just waste time, a lot of the stuff left are clothes, but there's also some CDs and tapes, an old music player, a computer monitor, bags and other accessories, some toys for any little cousins/siblings you may have...I know this is propaganda, but we wanna get rid of as much of the stuff on sale as possible. We'll donate/throw away anything that doesn't sell I think. So...stop by!

Hum hum hum, year 11 has been alright so far. More work definitely, but this year I'm gonna try to get more involved, seeing as how Justin keeps saying 'GOLD' every other day to remind me to do extra-curricular. GO INTERACT LOL. As a senior, I have to be a good role model, and the first step is to enforce my power as senior to push out any juniors in the Hall of Honour. I can't WAIT to do that! :D

Thinking of switching Chem and Phys lines because...well, let's say the learning environment isn't top notch in Phys. My fellow physicists will understand to some degree at the very least. Other Chem line is still Jackson I think, so the transition should be okay. SHOULD. If I do it. Hrgm...

I'm going to finish here now because my sister has left her facebook account logged on...kekekeke.

%#$@ you, Westfield's.

I was trying to think of a title for this post, when lo and behold, I came across an e-mail from Westfield's. Turn's out that "all I want for christmas is a gift card" was won by someone in Victoria. URGH. Dunno if it's a territorial thing, but I would have been happier if someone from NSW won it. Anyway, just posting cause I can't be bothered right now to do math, but I will. I've been doing my homework lately, so fingers crossed that I'll hold up the HW streak for the rest of the year.

I miss talking to you.
I miss making fun of other people with you.
I miss what we had.

It's only been the third day of school, but that's how I feel. If 'you' can figure out who you are, I can't believe that you'd read this =\. I'm not too good with writing long poems (if you can call that one), especially when I'm half-distracted making sure I won't get caught using the computer when I haven't done my homework.

Sport selections tomorrow, go rec sport!! My table is being temporarily overrun with my sister's knick-knacks, so I'm gonna have to shovel it all off without breaking them, so I'll be leaving for the moment. Ciao~

"i see you", "oh cuss!" and belated season's greetings / happy new year

Sorry I haven't done much blogging, not that many would care, including me, I've just fallen out of the blog-scene I guess. It's been a month or two since I've read anyone else's and well, as much as I'd love to learn more about you, I'm too lazy. Expect posts to be sparse from now on for the rest of the holidays, seeing as how I won't be posting something unless I really feel like it. Heck, I missed out on just quickly posting a merry christmas/happy new year post on here, but no. I was too lazy :D

I've had a lot of fun over the holidays so far. After camp, that was when the holidays started, I guess. I would've gone on the last day when Amy said to on the 10O picnic board, but I didn't check it that day, so...I didn't go :S

My sister Margaret (who seems to have been reading by blog of late and commented on the previous post) and Dad have their birthdays within two weeks of each other, and so when we go out to celebrate, we combine their birthdays into the same night (cheaper that way, but twice as special). On the night we went out, we went to Koby Jones, a popular Japanese-fusion restaurant in the city by the harbour. Describing their food as beautiful and delicious wouldn't be enough considering the calibre of the food they served. Quite rich in flavour and filling (but still healthy for you because it's Japanese XD), the food was exquisite.

We celebrated Christmas over at 'the little family's new house' where we played Guitar Hero and watched Anaconda 4 (honestly, the horror factor from that movie is non-existent as most of the deaths are unrealistic and are obviously computer generated). During said movie, Raymark and I played super Mario on wireless. Silly boy kept destroying my stars D:

Speaking of better, MUCH better movies, I watched Avatar with my sisters in the city. AWESOME movie. If you haven't watched it yet, go. Simple enough storyline, but sometimes less is more, and the creativity of the minds behind Avatar is shoen through the world of Pandora, the place where Avatar is set. Again, watch it if you haven't yet, it is a good movie.

Our family spent New Year's Eve at the Figuroa's house (except for Dite, she went to Rach's). After a very diverse dinner, the adults stayed downstairs and did their thing while Ate and I played Guitar Hero 5 and Metallica on XBOX360 (thanks Noy!) Lucky for Cookie, we got her about $1000+ in Metallica XD. Personally, the fireworks were a little bit of a let down this year. They said it'd be the biggest yet, but they weren't...if they didn't say anything in the first place, I bet people would have appreciated them more.

The following day, we called people in the past of 2009! Haha, I'm sure it might seem really silly to you, but it was really funny calling Tita Siony's in America while it was 2009 there and we were in 2010. That kind of 'time travel' was one I had never considered before; it was a hoot.

Yesterday I went out with my group plus Sebastian to Westfield's Livo for some shopping, and a movie. We shopped a little first (I gots new clothes :D) and then around 11:15 we went up to the movie theatres to get our tickets before the massive midday line-up. After five minutes debating, we decided to watch Fantastic Mr. Fox. We went back down to the food court for lunch a little Timezone before heading back up to watch the movie at 12:45. Let me just say that now I am very wary of blueberries now. Very wary. Watch the movie and you'll get it.

Well, hope you guys are all have a swell time, I'll see you all on the other side of this month!