Inner Reflection

This will be short. Just something that's been floating around in my head for a good few days now. I might be doing more of these in future, so I might number them! By the way, I'm not reflecting on how I might do more reflections in the near future. No. Not the case...I'm rambling. Ok, on with in.

While I've been holed up inside home for a good while, I've noticed that, as Asian as it sounds, music, and piano in particular, has become a special part of me. This is more evident when I play. Usually, when I play the piano, I relax, my mind wanders and I get lost in the music (until I press the wrong key). Being able to play an instrument has opened up another world/dimension (or whatever you wanna call it) for me, and the holidays have helped me find this about myself. I even posed the question to myself, 'What would you give up? All your electronic games (and I mean ALL of them, just not including the electronic games played at parties and with friends on those fun occasions) or piano (the skills I've 'honed' and the instrument itself)?

In all honesty, I'd rather give up the games, because the piano gives me something that games can't. The feeling is hard to describe, I just feel empowered, yet calm at almost the same time. Feeling the music go through me, and its emotions too. I guess that's what I love about piano, the emotion of its pieces and conveying. Playing sad songs does leave me sad sometimes. Powerful pieces sometimes leaves me drained (not as dramatic as the word implies, but I still feel this), leaving me with peace of mind.

The emotion is a key reason to why I don't want to take lessons: I'm afraid that somehow I might lose the fire I have for playing the piano. That among the learning and exams and so on, I would lose the connection. That plus the fact that I can't be bothered to go and it costs money XD!

Whenever I play I song, especially one I'm attached to, I especially loathe when I have to stop midway. Not because of a mistake I make, no (...well, sometimes). That's my fault. It's when I'm required to do something that takes me away from the otherworld of music I fall into everytime I tinkle on the keys. I don't like disconnecting from the piece then have to reconnect with it. It doesn't feel complete in that sense. I would want to start from the beginning, but that takes time.

I'm very pedantic about this kind of thing aren't I? Well, I'm not sure how long this has been, I'll just post and see if this ended up neing long, I'm not bothered to preview this. I hope this gives you, the viewer, a small insight into my mindset, the awesome Patrick XD!